God is putting it on my heart to tell you all that I am praying for you.
Even if I only met you for a brief moment (met you at a bus stop, walked by you on the street) chances are I wrote down your name, or mentioned our conversation in my journal so that I would remember.
If you have been a part of my life (good or bad) I am praying for you. I pray for your family. I pray I would forgive you. I pray you would forgive me. I pray most of all for your heart. I pray that you would love Jesus with all of your heart if you don’t yet and if you do, I pray that relationship would be strengthened. I pray that the Gospel would re-ignight here in the midwest in a way that lives would be radically changed and that religion would burn to the ground and the ashes be scattered to the far regions never to be found again. I pray for God to use you for His Glory and that you would find great joy in doing so.
God has reminded me how much I’ve been living on the sidelines in regards to some of you and that I really need to remove my head from a certain area of my lower region. I am sorry for that. I accept that you may not like me much as a result of my praying about speaking truth in love into your life. I have not loved some of you as I should have been and I ask your forgiveness.
There is so much going on in my head and heart now. I do not say these words in pride but humility. There have been times in my life when I have run HARD from this responsibility! I desired so much to be loved and accepted by everyoe that I ignored the love and acceptance I reveived from Jesus (who is the only one that matters, truth be told). God is really calling me out on this right now. The next three years are going to be hard for several reasons. Most of them silly difficulties. But I’m going forward to Chicago with the confidence of Christ knowing that I have everthing I need and that I will not be forsaken or swallowed whole by the trials that await me there. Even in this confidence I pray every day and then some to finish this race in full.
We all now how much I hate running after all…
